I suppose this is the perfect place to post this feeling I’ve been having for quite sometime. I have few followers and most are my closest friends, so why the hell not?
I believe at this point in my life I’ve found “that one person”. That one person who made me discover passions I’ve never felt before. That one person I’m willing to give all my attention to. That one person I want to save.
In the beginning it was wonderful. All the times we spent talking and associating with one another. It honestly felt like a dream. Then one day all communication was lost. I was bewildered and frightened. Like I woke up from that delightful dream. Weeks went by and the situation became worse and worse. Was this my fault? Of course it was your fault! You should have been more attentive and aggressive! Because of your passive nature you missed the opportunity! Simple to say I went mad. An opportunity that was precious to me slipped through my fingers. But it couldn’t have been my fault. I gave it my all…didn’t I?
On night I dreamt about that one person. Running off to find something, leaving me behind. I tried as best as I could to keep up, but eventually I ended up on the ground, tired and defeated, watching my person go farther and farther into the distance. It must have been a sick metaphor for the situation that’s been going on.
Though eventually I discovered the problem. My person clearly came from a troubling life. Lost and confused, yet trying to fill the emptiness. Luckily that person chose friendship, kindness, and love. However lately the choice of the matter is to shut everyone out. This is painful to me. We’ve gotten so close so fast, and now that person can barely look at me.
In the bottom of my heart all I want to do is hold my person in my arms and repeat over and over that everything will be alright, you’ll see. After all I have you and you have me. Yet there are many obstacles in the way.
But listen my sweet person, I’m here for you, willing to talk, listen, and accompany you in times of frustration and loneliness. Even if it’s not my time, I can wait.